I've never written in anything other than an exercise book. Its been months since I have last written anything in my diary too. Life passed in such a blur these last few months. Why is it that when you want to hold on to every single moment the minutes just have to intrude? I can't grasp the fact that I'm gonna leave school soon. It feels like only a few days ago when I first arrived at SKSK. Didn't seem like a nice place through those childs eyes of mine then. I guess that its only by leaving and moving on do you ever really learn to appreciate the things you took for granted. I miss my family. Not that I've ever left my mom's side for more than 4 days, but, I miss being a real, whole family. Everyone is just getting old , and having boyfriends ( which is, by the way, totally scary when I have to hear them talking on the phone) so fast that I feel like screaming! Kak'awa is so far away at Australia. It has been so long since I heard her voice. I don't feel like studying anymore. I used to love learning, but now the teachers make you feel so scared, get so serious and talk so much that I don't want to ever read my textbooks anymore. My music library isn't helping either. There's just nothing soothing enough. I feel jealous of my little brother. I can't believe Michael Jackson is dead! I'm not a real fan of him, but I still feel pretty sorry of the way he was treated before. People saying all sorts of things about him. And just when he was starting his comeback tour. Weird how he died because of taking drugs. Just like famous Elvis Presly. Maybe thats why Allah forbids us to take drugs. Kakak is downstairs reading. I can tell she is just psyched about New Moon. I am so yearning to watch it. Kakak is sick. Something to do with appendix?? She can't go upstairs. Or disturb me for that matter. How I'm gonna miss everything as it used to be, family, friends, cousins, teachers, sisters and long gone rabbits.
